Moving down, the descending heart beats faster,
The surge, flow of blood to the head overwhelms.
To cope, the breathing deepens and slows.
First breath, smell of floor fills the nostrils.
Eyes open, seeing becomes limited to the mind.
Thud thud, in a moment the hearing returns.
Palms down, supporting the body weight.
Feeling pressure, the knees and forehead accompany.
Complete surrender, of the heart, mind and limbs
As salaam alaykum,
well Ive done it again. I got excited over a possible proposal which in its very early stages has been suspended.Probably ended.
Ive forgotten how many times this has happened. It is the will ofAllah and surely there is wisdom behind it. I need to learn something else before Allah blesses me with a husband. But what it is Im not sure.
Ive contemplated what is it I need to know? What is it that Allah wants me to learn? But still nothing.
There is a lot of self reflection.
One of the many things Ive thought is that I have thought that so many of my problems would be lifted through nikkah. I would be able to live comfortably with the support of another muslim. Someone who I can share my problems with, my thoughts and feelings, feel safe. But then again shouldnt I feel like that with Allah. I should call out to Allah about my problems. Seek refuge in Allah from the evil of this world. Put my entire trust in Allah.
There is wisdom behind everything Allah does.If Allah doesnt grant me the dua of a spouse Allah saves me from something else that would of harmed me. I have to have sabr and trust in Allah.
I pray that Shaytan will not bother me over this topic as he always does.
May Allah curse Shaytan.Ameen
MashAllah came across this on deenport.I truly rate this lecturer. May Allah guide her along the straight path. Reminds me of some of the feminist opinions I held and begin to develop before Islam.
http://www.pbs.org/wgbh/globalconnections/mideast/video/real/veilingandfeminism-hi.html
